
Sharing a drink they call loneliness
A false smile spreads from ear to ear
I've began it again, that same habit.
It's all a fake, it's all a lie.
I'm the most convincing actor,
I'm the best actor, an emmy deserving character
Don't belive me eh?
You can't tell when i'm unhappy unless I let you
Or unless I don't care.
You can't tell how I feel, you can't tell what i'm thinking.
You can't figure me out, I am enigma.
I am beyond the realm of the English language..
Or any langauge for that matter.
I am Emotion, and I am talent.
I'm a ball of irrational pain covered by a smile and love
You want to understand me?
Thanks for the offer but no, I'll pass.
It's vaguely embarrassing, it is.
To explain that I'm still so deeply in love.
As to where it effects my relationships, with all of my friends.
And those whom just could become something more.
I am strength and determination.
Do I have to say the words?
Can't you hear them?
They're written on my skin
They're scribbled in my eyes,
And they're choking my heart.
I Love you, and I Miss you.
And you might just remember my name
And you might just remember my Love...
Nothing is as it was.
Nothing is as it will be.
I'd kill to live in those moments of risk.
And I'd throw it all away to have you back
But I wish most to fall back into yesterday.
The yesterday of palm trees and choral voices.
Nights standing in Hotel hallways,
And Spent in a gazebo talking...
So call me pathetic my dear, but I miss you.
And Sometimes I think I need you.
You were my first, probably my last and only.
You changed me.
Fall in love with the job but not the project.
I should have listened to my own advice.
Thank you for the comment on my entry. I was begining to think i was the only one to want that. I'm strange. By the way... I love the way you started this one. "Sharing a drink they call loneliness